Thursday, 28 May 2009

Leannes leaving card

Well Leannes leaving card is finished and I am really pleased with it. I used some more of the lace I got in the 'group purchase' on

The silver oval was cut with the nestabilities in the cuttlebug and the holes around the edge were done with my crop a dile.

On the backing paper (making memories boho chic) I have used glossy accents to do the shiny dots.

Wednesday, 27 May 2009

2 of the cards on my list

Heres the start of 2 of the cards I have to make - printed and I have used the cuttlebug to cut them out and have used stickles and glossy accents on them.
Whilst they are drying I am going to have some lunch then hopefully get them finished.

I have looked at my blog and noticed there is a big gap here with nothing on and I cannot get rid of it grrrrrr on the preview (and the compose bit) it looks great without a big gap and then when I publish, bam, there it is, empty space .. . apologies.

Dianes bracelet

Well as mentioned in my previous post, my little jewellery package arrived ...and it was little - you don't get much for your money.
Here are the contents of my parcel (not including my chain)

and here they are out of the plastic packaging.

And the final product - it was so easy to assemble, and fast, wow its the quickest thing I have made .... well if you don't count all the coffees I make myself.
The photos don't do the bracelet justice, it is really pretty and very shiny, I just hope Diane likes it.

Now my next task is to make some cards: Dianes birthday, Leannes leaving, Kerrys birthday, Peter and Celinas new baby card and I was wondering about doing a photo album for Peter and Celina too ... or something with a teddy, but whatever I make has to be mailed to Germany so it doesnt really want to be too heavy (or too big) ... anyway its not gonna get done if I am sat here waffling on about it is it?
Oh it is our Wedding Anniversary on Monday too so that another card I need to make.

broken Tiffany

On Sunday night I broke my chain that holds my Tiffany heart and as it is a snake chain I woudn't even know where to start to repair it (or even if it can be done)

So on Monday whe nI was ordering the components to make Dianes bracelet I popped a new sterling silver chain into my basket too. The postie has just been and my tiffany is as good as new (well almost, if only the sterling silver jump rings didn't keep going a funny yellow colour ... but I suppose thats what you get if you don't take your jewellery off when you spray perfume)

Monday, 25 May 2009

spending ... just a little though

Well today I have ordered a couple of things off the web. It is my Sisters birthday at the beginning of June and have decided to make a charm bracelet as part of her present, so those goods have been ordered and paid for (hope they get here in time)
I have also been onto pink petticoat and ordered a new lola download to make her card (currently downloading as I am typing this) and the girl who is leaving (and who's job I am having) will also be getting a card made from this download - I will be making these either tomorrow or Wednesday .. so photos will be on really soon .. .well hopefully

Saturday, 23 May 2009

wow, its been a bit hectic but here's my story

I can't beleive how long it is since I last posted - the time has flown by so quickly and Ive been exhausted - this could be a long one whilst I explain everything so I suggest if you are considering reading it all that a strong coffee might be in order (firstly so you have your 'cuppa' and secondly to probably keep you awake whilst I waffle on)

OK, I will start at the beginning:
When I had Callam I suffered with post natal depresison and had I gone to the docs sooner I probably could have saved myself a lot of trauma (Oh don't you just love hindsight?) but did I go to the docs as soon as I realised what it was? Of course I didnt, I did my ostritch impression and put my head in the sand hoping it would go away (all the while doing a bloody good job of hiding it from everybody - not the wisest thing to do)
When callam got to 6 months old I was really struggling to hide the depression and went onto seroxat, which worked for me (well kind of, at least I didn't sommit suicide which many on that particular drug have been known to do) for a while, then it stopped working and I changed medication - this happened quite a few times over the years.
When Callam started nursery I went back downhill and was a mess and didn't want to go out of the house, answering the telephone sent me into a panic and I spent the whole summer (pretty much) in the house and the anxiety set in (Oh fun times!!)
I eventually (with the help from my wonderful health visitor) got a CPN who has worked with me for the last few years (Callam is 10 now) and have slowly (Oh so very slowly) progressed - the mild agorophobia is almost (I did say almost because it is still lurking in the back of my mind) gone and I still suffer with anxiety and panic attacks but am completely off all my medication (at my very worst I was on diazepam alongside my antidepressant, reboxetine)
The wedding stationery has been a bit of a diversion, something to do, but meeting with brides was difficult because of the way my anxiety is I have no confidence with people I don't know when I am face to face (or on the telephone) - this obstacle has caused a few problems to the extent that I am unsure if I will do any more wedding stationery (I am keeping my website for the time being until I decided one way or the other)

Anyway my Husband (who has been wonderful throughout my illness) got me a voluntary position at his place of employment and after notifying the benefits agency (yes I have been on incapacity - but everything has been declared - I don't sleep particularly well most nights and if I was to do anything that is not allowed I would have even more anxiety) I have been doing a couple of short days in the office - admin work (filing, checking forms, etc - no telephone answering as I'm still not comfortable on the phone) for the last few weeks.

I have been offered a proper job with the company and I didn't have to have an interview (which was the only thing stopping me from applying for anything. The best way to explain it is to get you to think about how nervous you are for a job interview ... you got that feeling?? well that is how I feel on a trip to the supermarket - so unless you have anxiety you won't have experienced the shock to the system that an interview would do - everything is exhausting and the fact that I sleep so badly doesnt help - thats the short explanation.) .... anyway, back to the good news. I have been offered a proper job with good pay (more than I had dared to hope for) and I am starting properly in a couple of weeks time. I am expecting to be even more tired than I am just doing a few hours two or three times a week but I can't wait to come off the benefits.

You still reading this?? wow, well done to you and thanks for 'listening'